Thursday, February 14, 2013

Life in the Dip

Have you ever been on a roller coaster?  I'm sure you have.  There's this roller coaster at Wonderland called the Behemoth, I think it's the last roller coaster that I've been on.  It has this nearly 90 degree dip that makes you feel like you're plummeting to your death.  It's the longest climb to the top and the longest dip to the bottom.  That's what I feel like my life is like.  It has been a huge uphill climb, and when you're at the top you just fall, everything just falls apart.  I feel like I've worked so hard to get where I am and just when I think that I've accomplished something, I plummet.  Everything goes wrong.  What could go wrong has went wrong.  I feel like no matter how hard I work, it's not good enough.  This is the deepest and longest dive that I have ever taken in my entire life.  The biggest disappointment that I have felt and just when I think that I couldn't feel worse, the coaster is still plummeting.  It is a long dive to the bottom and I'm heading straight for it.  The ride is not over and I wish it was.

I live my life in fear.  Fear of being hurt, fear of being disappointed, fear of failing, but what I have learned is that on the Behemoth, the large and huge dip is at the beginning of the ride, and the rest of the ride has other small dips and ups and downs, but once you over come the big dive, the rest of the ride is a breeze.  I think that life is the same way.  Full of ups and downs, big ups and downs, lots of failures both from yourself and by other people, but life will pick up again.

The biggest mistake is living in that fear.  Not wanting to do anything because you feel scared that you will be disappointed or you will disappoint someone.  Not doing anything because you don't want to fail.  The worst thing you can do is live in fear so much that you just keep your life stagnant.  Stuck at the bottom and not even try to climb that uphill battle.  That's a boring ride.  You need to pick yourself up and move on.  Learn from your mistakes, learn from the past and move on.  That's how it should be.  If Josiah falls I tell him to get up, and Jojo gets up, brushes his hands and keeps walking.  Mateo on the other hand, falls and it's like the end of the world, he waits for me to pick him up and comfort him.  Mateo, just like most of us, have to learn that sometimes when you fall, no one is going to be there to pick you up, if no one is there then you have to learn to pick yourself up, brush off your hands and keep walking.  Sometimes there will be someone there and you should really take their hand to help you up, they'll help you brush up and comfort you and then help you to move on.

Life is a roller coaster ride.  Ride it all the way until the end.  Don't just settle for the stagnant bottom of the barrel ride, you have to work to make it through all the troubles and all the trials, make it out of the dip and pull yourself forward, or have someone to help you pull forward.  Sometimes dips are so low that you'll need help getting out, and people are always there to help you out.  Just make sure it is the right people.  If it's the wrong people, they're probably just going to keep you company at the bottom of the barrel, and who wants that?  It's better to climb and get up than to just sit in the dip.

I'm not a sitter.  I climb.  Right now, I need hiking shoes and a friend to help shove me out of this dip.  And I know I have that support to help me through the hard times.  Make sure that you have the right friends that will help you out of the dip and not the ones who will sit with you in the dip.

Life moves whether you sit in the dip or climb out of it.  Don't let life pass you by because you didn't want to try and climb out of your hole.

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