Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Eye of the Tiger

Every time I hear Katy Perry's Song "Roar" I feel like crying out of utter joy.  This year has been the WORST year of my life.  EVERRRRRR.  Somehow, I managed to get through everything.  I feel like no matter how hard life got, no matter how many times I was pushed down and beaten up and shoved into a corner by life, I still got up again and fought back and I feel like a champion.  I really don't like starting off blogs with a whole paragraph about how great I am and how amazing I am because in reality, I wouldn't be here today without my family supporting me, and my friends being there for me.  I wouldn't be anywhere without the people surrounding me, and of course, without the strength of God in my heart I wouldn't have gotten through anything.

I know most of what I write is about overcoming obstacles and difficult times in life.  I just think that it's important to remember that no matter what happens in life, you can always, ALWAYS get through any difficulties that come your way, because God only gives you what you can handle, and honestly, once you get through the difficult times, you kind of feel like a champion and that you can conquer anything.  That's how I feel when I listen to this song.  I have been through so much this past year and I got through it and I feel like a champion and I want to just celebrate because I feel like I can breathe now and I am ready for more obstacles to come my way.


I used to bite my tongue and hold my breath
Scared to rock the boat and make a mess
So I sat quietly, agreed politely
I guess that I forgot I had a choice
I let you push me past the breaking point
I stood for nothing, so I fell for everything

You held me down, but I got up
Already brushing off the dust
You hear my voice, you hear that sound
Like thunder, gonna shake the ground
You held me down, but I got up
Get ready cause I’ve had enough
I see it all, I see it now

[Chorus]
I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter, dancing through the fire
Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me ROAR
Louder, louder than a lion
Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me ROAR
You’re gonna hear me roar

Now I’m floating like a butterfly
Stinging like a bee I earned my stripes
I went from zero, to my own hero

You held me down, but I got up
Already brushing off the dust
You hear my voice, you hear that sound
Like thunder, gonna shake the ground
You held me down, but I got up
Get ready ’cause I’ve had enough
I see it all, I see it now


Sunday, August 25, 2013

Today is Going to Be a GOOD day!!!

I woke up this morning with the sun beaming on my face and thought, “Today is going to be a horrible day!”

The sun was beaming on my face, I was all sweaty because our A/C broke, and the kids are looking into my face SCREAMING for cereal.  I thought to myself, “Today is going to be a HORRIBLE day!”

I made their cereal, and my oldest decides it would be a GREAT idea to toss his bowl on the floor.  I look at the mess and think, “Today is going to be  a horrible day.”

I go to the bathroom, only to see that my husband didn’t flush the toilet and he left the toothpaste cap off.  I thought to myself, “Ugh, today is going to be a horrible day.”

I get the kids ready for school, which takes HOURS because they’re kids.  I get my bagel in the toaster and rush to put on my work clothes, only to realize that the outfit I wanted to wear is in the laundry. And to top it all off, my bagel burnt in the toaster.  Yes, today is going to be a horrible day.

I get in my car, drop the kids at school and go to work.  They raised the parking price by 10 dollars.  Amazing.  Today is going to be a horrible day.

I walk in to work only to realize that once again, the building put the AC on full blast, and I forgot my sweater at home.  I didn’t think I had to bring one seeing as how it was the hottest day of the year.  I shiver as I turn on my computer.  Today is going to be a horrible day.

Staring at my computer screen for 5 hours, freezing in my chair I decide to go for a walk outside to warm up.  It’s nice and hot out, I realize then, that I forgot to call the repair man to fix the AC.  My house is going to be boiling when I get home.  Today is going to be a horrible day!!

I walk around the block and drink about 3 gallons of water to keep myself cool.  Whew, it’s a really hot day today.  A nice policeman tells me that I should stay inside.  There’s a heat alert warning.  I walk past a couple of people on the streets thinking, they should get inside, they look thirsty.  And I walk back to the office and toss the extra water bottle I was carrying into the garbage.

I finish off the freezing day at work and drive home.  I was stuck in traffic for about an hour but I finally made it.  I picked up the kids and turned on the car radio.  The announcer said that 7 homeless people died today due to the heat.  I thought, it wasn’t THAT hot, they probably died of overdose or something.

I went home, and realized that my husband fixed the AC  and the house wasn’t even that hot.  My husband ended up coming home early and cooking dinner for me and the kids.  The kids had an exhausting day at school and wanted to sleep early and my husband and I were able to squeeze in a movie before we went to bed.  I thought to myself, I guess today wasn’t that bad of a day.
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I woke up this morning with the sun beaming on my face and thought, “Today is going to be a good day!”

I reached over to pick up my satchel carrying my life’s possessions, a toothbrush, an extra change of clothes, a couple of hair ties, and two pairs of socks.  I wanted to start the day feeling fresh, only to realize that my satchel was gone.  Someone had stolen it.  “Oh well,” I thought to myself.  “Today is going to be a good day!”

I walked over to the fountain and washed my face, two little kids were laughing at me and throwing pieces of their left over hot dog buns at me.  I picked a piece up, looked at them and smiled, thinking, “Breakfast! Today really is going to be a good day!”

I gathered the rest of my “breakfast” and put it in my pocket.  I walked over to Shelley’s hut to see if she would want some breakfast too.  She wouldn’t wake up.  I thought to myself, “She’s with the Lord now, in a much happier place, probably eating a nice meal with Jesus.  Today is going to be a good day.”  I wiped the tear from my eye and continued walking.

Off to work I go.  Grabbing my usual high traffic spot at the corner of Main and 23rd, I saw all the people walking on their way to work, busy with their cell phones and business conversations.  I found a penny on the floor, smiled to myself and thought “I may be able to afford a new toothbrush, today is going to be a good day!” 

I settled into my spot when a cranky policeman that had missed his morning coffee gave me a bright yellow piece of paper, he said I had to pay it within the next two weeks, and then he made me move from my spot.  I thought to myself “How nice that this man thinks that I can afford to pay a fine, when I don’t even have shoes on my feet.  Today is going to be a good day.”

I walked back around to find the nearest shelter.  I was hot and needed some water, the shelter is usually helpful with things like that.  Turns out, it’s one of the hottest days of the year, and the shelter is already filled with people that need water and a place to stay cool.  I thought to myself “How nice that they were able to help out that many people!  Today really IS a good day!”

I tried to find some cool air in one of the nearest buildings.  The security guard turned me away.  I tried 10 more buildings, and was turned away ten more times.  I sat on the floor and stared up at the sun.  I thought to myself, “Today is going to be a good day!”  I fell asleep out of exhaustion and heat.   I’m actually not sure if I passed out or fell asleep, but I like to think I have the privilege of resting in the beautiful sun, unlike all the business people who are stuck inside all day, slaving away in front of those computers of theirs.

My heart starts beating faster and faster as the sun reaches its highest point.  I stare up at it thinking, “What a beautiful view, not a cloud in the sky, got the sun in my eyes….” And start humming a tune.  I start feeling dizzy again.  I don’t feel so well.  I want to vomit, but the piece of bread I had for breakfast is already digested and there’s nothing left to vomit.  I try to tell myself one more time, “Today is going to be a good day!”

All of a sudden I feel someone lift me up and carry me away from all the heat and my body feels strong again.  I feel happy, the happiest I’ve been.  It’s a feeling of inexplicable joy.  I don’t want to open my eyes because I fear that this happiness will go away.  I take a quick peek at my Saviour.   I rest my head on His shoulder and I smile because I know that where I am going, EVERY DAY will be a good day, just like today.

Thank you Jesus, for making today a good day!